Well see, now here's the thing...

Life changes. I was with Joey, now I'm with Bryan... but when I look back at everything that I shared with Joey, I get depressed. I really wish things hadn't ended that way.... I want to be out of his life... I want to just let everything go... but I can't. Whenever I hear of a girl liking him, I automatically try to stop her... I shouldn't... he deserves a girl friend... but I'm scared that he will make the same mistake with someone else as he did with me.... I want him to learn how to treat a girl, but I wish he would've learned with me. I wish he had tried... just a little harder, and things wouldn't have ended that fast. I miss hanging out with him... I had alot of fun with him. We would laugh and joke about the stupidest things ever... but I loved it. I miss it. And no matter how many times I try to talk to him now, it wont ever be the same... I hurt him too much. I'm scared to re-open those wounds. And even if he wasn't hurt, it will never be the same. He changed alot after everything that happened... I've never felt so bad in my life...

Tj said it wasn't my fault.. that I shouldn't feel bad... He said Joey was the one who didn't try. Bryan took advantage of this and made a move... And Joey let it happen. He didn't do anything about it... He knew that his girl friend was beginning to like someone else and yet he didn't do anything to change that... I guess it was Joey's fault that things had to end... Maybe not entirely, but for the most part, yes. He realized that he had a girl right there in front of him, ready to do anything for him, just waiting... but he realized that too late... That girl wouldn't wait forever... she moved on... and he lost her... I was stolen from Joey by the most seductive guy ever...

Currently Gaming Halo 3 By Microsoft Games see related

Come here with a fiery blaze!!

That's crazy!! I just wrote a long blog and posted it, and the next tmie I came to my page it was gone!! What the hell!? Anyway...

Well I haven't really been on here much, and Bryan is to blame for it. It's not a bad thing that I'm spending all my time with him, but it leaves me no time for anything else. This weekend I'm free because he went to his tio's house and I hate his tio... so yeah. I get to study for finals and do a bunch of work for english otherwise I'm gonna fail.

I really want to learn how to play Halo. I mean, I know how to play, but I want to get really good. But I think I need an X-Box. Anyone want to let me borrow theirs for the weekend?? Anyone? I think I'm gonna call Joey or something. I will seriously pay 10 dollars to someone who will let me borrow their X-Box for the weekend and Halo or Halo 2. That would be awesome.! Maybe someday I can even get as good as Saul and Mario and kick Bryan and Nick's asses! Hell yeah! Lol.

Currently Listening The Black Parade By My Chemical Romance Famous Last Words see related

I am not afraid to keep on living, I am not afraid to walk this world alone!

Wow... I hadn't been online in such a long time. Lol.

Well... I'm trying really hard to get my grades up... it's hard!! and yeah... I need to go take a biology test and a health test. It's just weird. So yeah. I think I might fail english... but I'm trying to get extra credit!! Hey! What can I say? I'm a freshman in a sophomore HONORS class!!  And I'm doing pretty good compared to other people.

I found Castlevania!! I got sooooo happy!! But then I lost Children of Mana... my dad is gonna kill me... I know I lost it because it was in my jacket pocket and it fell out during school... so there's no way I can get it... unless I buy it... Whatever...

... There's so much bad karma that hasn't come back to me... and it's gonna get me... I'm kinda scared....

*And I see you lying next to me... with words I thought I'd never speak, Awake and unafraid. Asleep or dead!!*
(I've had that song in my head ALL day... it's getting kind of annoying... Lol)

Ok... So my little guy didn't turn out looking so good... So I stopped. Anyway...

I'm so happy!! I got my DS on Wednesday! And I got 3 games!. Lol, Choldren of Mana, Castlevania: Dawn of Sorrow, and Mario Kart DS.

At school, we've been playing Mario Kart alot. And it's like the funnest thing ever! It's Bryan, Adrian, Jeremy, Alan and/or Julia, and me. And we have so much fun! Lol.

But I started crying... I lost my favorite video game... or one of my favorites... I lost Castlevania: Dawn of Sorrow... and I can't find it!! So I'm about to cry... ....

Currently Listening See You on the Other Side By Korn Liar see related

There's this little guy that Albert drew... and he's super cool!! Wanna see what he looks like? *Opens Paint and start drawing him...*

Well I can't finish but I'll post him later!!